Me && my life.

do you have a tumblr secrets video? :)

normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Sun, 04 Nov 2012 22:17:05 +0000

http://letslearnhowtosmilev.tumblr.com/post/8253317757/letslearnhowtosmile-please-watch-this

xx

you're my inspiration. I was wondering how did you lose weight?any tips?:-) I wanna be like you..

normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Sun, 04 Nov 2012 22:11:43 +0000

Wow, i really can’t believe you just said that, thank you so much! Urm.. just eat 3 normal sized meals a day and exercise regularly . i know it sounds like shite but it does help

Haha this is totally me;)

normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Sun, 20 May 2012 22:01:24 +0100

Haha this is totally me;)

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Thu, 02 Feb 2012 18:54:57 +0000

Sundays are always hardest..

normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Sun, 25 Sep 2011 23:45:06 +0100

This used to be my favourite day of the week…Spending every minute of the day with him. I’d wake up in his arms,have a great day, right now we’d be watching a film, i’d fall asleep in his arms and then he’d leave. I miss that. I miss just being held..

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Sun, 25 Sep 2011 16:18:07 +0100

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Tue, 20 Sep 2011 10:00:05 +0100

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 18:49:53 +0100

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Sat, 17 Sep 2011 21:59:17 +0100

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Thu, 15 Sep 2011 20:20:02 +0100

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Wed, 14 Sep 2011 02:25:05 +0100

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Wed, 14 Sep 2011 01:10:05 +0100

So i guess this is my story..

normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Tue, 13 Sep 2011 23:05:05 +0100

I had a great childhood and grew up living with my sister and my mum. When i was like 4 my mum got with Matty and i grew up calling him dad. When i was 12 my mum cheated on him and as a result they split up, this hurt me as much as to me he was my dad. They remained friends and even though she had a new boyfriend he would still come round. None of my family know this so I can’t talk about it but for 3 months before my mum died she was doing cocaine, even on my little sisters birthday. My mum died in a car crash, of which the car was being driven by Matty, 5 days before my 13th birthday. When my nan told me I couldn’t believe it.. I used to cry myself to sleep for months telling myself that it was a joke and that she had just gone on holiday. I stopped kidding myself after around 6 months.
Since then I’ve always been depressed and have always thought about suicide and well i’m not gonna lie i did start cutting because the girl i liked did it. Crazy I know! But then i started to depend on it. I started hiding my cuts and hiding myself more. I would separate myself from my friends and cut, even in school.

I hate commitment, I find it hard to commit to someone.. After knowing Matt for 9 months I thought I was in love with him and when he asked me out I was so happy. After a month or so i cheated on him, and then we split up. I hadn’t cried that much in years.. Losing him made me realize that i wanted him and no one else. We carried on talking and met up a few times but everytime we’d have cuddles it’d always lead to more. I do miss him a lot but I am now so much happier without him. <3

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Tue, 13 Sep 2011 23:05:05 +0100

I miss you with all my heart. You were my everything and I know...

normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Tue, 13 Sep 2011 22:01:05 +0100

I miss you with all my heart. You were my everything and I know it’s stupid but I nearly lost one of my closest friends for you. You made my days better with a single phone call and one text would make me smile. Everything you said to me was just a lie, everytime you said you loved me meant nothing, everytime we cuddled you were just trying to get into my pants. I still love you but I know i’m better off without you. I am happier without you.

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 23:47:05 +0100

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Mon, 12 Sep 2011 18:56:13 +0100

Here's to the memories of Harry Potter.

normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Fri, 19 Aug 2011 11:54:31 +0100

lunagranger:

Thank you<3

IT’S POSTS LIKE THESE THAT LEAVE ME SITTING HERE IN THE DARK IN FRONT OF MY COMPUTER SCREEN SOBBING LIKE DRACO MALFOY IN THE BATHROOM AND FEELING COMPLETELY EMPTY INSIDE.

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Thu, 18 Aug 2011 18:57:33 +0100

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normalisnotsomethingtoaspireto — Thu, 18 Aug 2011 18:52:46 +0100